Wednesday, December 19, 2007


It's odd how we take for granted the people in our lives. For example, my dad is the greatest guy ever. He has his faults, and yes they have shaped his choices so that he may not be who he wanted to be, but to me is a very strong man who has taken what he has been given and just tried to survive. I saw Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium and they had some interesting things to say. And 'just' doing something was a no-no. But sometimes all you can do is 'just' survive.

I spent the weekend with my dad. I miss him a lot. I really hope that I am able to get this internship down in FL, cause that would mean i would have this one summer with my dad where we can hang out and do things and learn about each other as adults. It would be wonderful.

I have a long list of things I want to do in my life. Sometimes I wonder if I want to accomplish them just because I want people to see that I've accomplished them. Sometimes I think I want to accomplish them because I want to accomplish them for other people I know who were never able to do so. Sometimes I make up stories about my grandparents to make them sound so much more amazing and worldly and accomplished and more interesting than they ever were in real life. I don't know.

I've settled into this life that I have. But I'm afraid that I will let down those who will come after me. Not that my grandparents ever let me down. More like I'm trying to live up to them? I don't know.

Quote of the Day: "Life's an Opportunity. Rise to it!" Dustin Hoffman as Mr. Magorium

Picture i took recently:
Beauty in the Concrete