Doubts

So I've been getting a small taste of the duties involved with the Editor-in-chief position at my college paper that I have for next year and, although there are still apprehensions, I feel a lot better about it. I have a great staff next year who will prove to work really hard and I am going to be so thankful for them. I can tell that already.
I think the biggest issue for me will be the idea of money. One of my goals was to put into motion a plan that would lead the paper to permanent self-sufficiency, giving it the ability to be completely free of influence (censorship). And I'd like to get it on the track of offering reporters a freelance style stipend for articles published. However, although I tend to be good at saving money, I don't generally have a head for budgeting and what not. Given that this is one of my major goals, I feel like I might have set myself up to fail and to fail miserably, at least in that regard.
I do, however, feel really positive about my ability to lead these people, a quality I have never really seen in my introverted self before.
I'm really trying to get back into my photography. I've felt so disconnected from it lately because I have been so busy with life. But I want to return to my love. I wonder if I could somehow get access to the darkroom over the summer? Possibilities. For now I just have to get done with this semester. So countdown: 1 ten-minute presentation on a 20-page senior seminar paper on integrating human rights and environmental rights and 1 exam on Ancient literature. Not too bad, unless I put things off:-(


"To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battles which any human being can fight ; and never stop fighting." ~~e.e. cummings