Travis and I have our very first Christmas tree. While it may not be the first Christmas that we've spent together, you could say that it sort of is our "First Christmas." And that realization has got me thinking. We've known for a very long time (I would pinpoint June 2006 if you need a time frame) that we were (as we promised to ourselves) "in it for the long haul."
Until September, that was just an abstract promise. It became very real Sunday, September 6, 2009. Little things like setting up the tree, making dinner together and snuggling on the couch with hot cocoa while we watch a movie are things we'll be doing for the rest of our lives.
Sometimes I live too much in the future, looking forward to when I'll finally go to grad school, how awesome life will be when we move to Oregon, even the great times we'll have when we finally adopt a dog. I've learned it cheapens the present.
But moments like last night, when we turned off all the lights to look at how our cheapo Big Lots lights beautified our not so perfect tree (with its own set of imperfections and holes), when we got lost in a hug contemplating the moment and nothing else; that's where I want to live. Not in the regrettable past or the unknowable future. Right here.
oh goodness, you're too cute. <3
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